1. Frye boots - My mama got me them for Christmas. They are great!!!
2. MWY show - I got to see both Melissa's and all my friends, my brother and Mike all at the same time! Yay!
3. Mike - I really am just so lucky. He is wonderful. Experiencing new things together is such a great feeling. Love it.
4. Getting snowed in - I can't believe I listed this. I really used to hate it, but it was nice this time around.
5. Sleep - I have been sooooo tired lately. Could sleep for days!
1. Christmas Eve - It was one of the best days I have had in a real long time. I didn't feel crappy. Mike and I hung out all day, everything went great!
2. Presents - Mike and I exchanged gifts on Christmas Eve. He got me the best ring ever ever! And shirts and surprise stuff and the greatest purse! He is really good at this gift giving thing.
3. Christmas Day - Being with family was a little rushed, but a great time. We gave gifts and ate and hung out. I really am blessed.
4. Watching everyone's excitement when they actually liked the stuff they opened.
5. Happy times - This was the first Christmas since my dad passed away that I wasn't balling the whole time. I miss him so much, but felt like he was here with us!
1. Alone time at work - so what I needed.
2. New coat - Josh got me a coat that makes me not look like a hobo anymore.
3. Couple cranky days to realize how good it feels when I am not cranky and bickering.
4. Friends in town!
5. Texts that crack me up. Have some solid people in my life that are pretty damn funny.
1. Lunar Eclipse - That was really pretty. Cool to think I got to see something that hasn't happened in 400 years. The raccoon sitting at my feet staring up at me, nearly gave me heart failure, but pretty awesome all the same.
2. Michael - I miss him more than I can explain most days. I think I just really need to see his face asap. Really happy and grateful he's in my life.
3. Break from my fever - Probably not going to last long, but nice to feel un-fogged for a minute. Sleepy, too.
4. Beach House on Conan - Just seriously love their music. So glad I got us tickets to see them again.
5. Christmas - It's soooo soon!!
1. Melissa F. - Seriously have no idea what I'd do without her. Such a great best friend. I miss her soooo much.
2. Sb - Got the chance to talk today. I miss her. It's nice to know after all the years and all the crap we go through that some friendships can really stand the tide. Solid friend.
3. Good friends - Feel very lucky to know that even when I feel horribly alone I have a good group of friends that I can count on, that know me better than most people and will always be there for me.
4. My mom - I know I put her on here a lot, but she should be on this list every single day. God bless this woman.
5. Josh - Definitely has been there for a me a lot lately. Really lucky to have him as a brother and best friend.
1. Packages - Glad things I ordered are starting to come in the mail. Bummed I haven't felt well enough to open any of them, but at least they are arriving. Hopefully it's the right stuff.
2. My doctor - He seems to be as concerned as I am and wants to get to the bottom of what is wrong with me. Thank God.
3. Lifetime movies - Seriously do not need to use my brain for these when I feel ill. That is unless they are awful, then I need to shut them off.
4. Rehab shows - I know it's sounds corny, but at the very least they keep me sober.
5. Fruit - These little fruit cups are giving little boosts of energy and are pretty refreshing.
1. Farmers Market - There is one in Ardmore that has a lot of good Gluten Free food. Pretty hearty dinners, can be quite pricey, but awesome to know I can get stuff there.
2. Gel face mask - I actually have no idea what this is called, but it goes around your eyes. You can freeze it or heat it up. It is soooo soothing. I love this thing. Wish they made a bodysuit out of it.
3. Phone/internet - Feels like the only way I can communicate with my boyfriend right now. If it weren't for these things I'd feel at a total loss.
4. Clean sheets - Have some clean sheets and blankets on my bed. So refreshing.
5. Sweaters - Been living in these. So comfy.
Have a couple of these saved up to post… been sick, so I'll post a few each day till I catch up.
1. Sendra Boots - Mike bought me a pair of these from Free People months ago. They are the best boots ever. I love, love, love them.
2. Breaking Bad - Days that Mike and I watch episodes of this show, I love them. Show is so great. Sometimes it makes me sad because he seriously looks and acts exactly like my dad, but it's sooo good.
3. New gluten free breadcrumbs - Mixed with some other stuff, made some great Chicken Cutlets. I can't wait to move and have a kitchen stoked with gluten free yummy stuff to cook.
4. Photo booth photos - Love, love, love these.
5. Christmas tree - So excited it's finally up!
1. My mom - She really is always there for me and so helpful when I need her. Not to mention she is one of the funniest people I know.
2. Memories of my dad - I have no idea what I would do if we didn't get to hold onto memories. He really was the greatest guy I've ever known. So funny, smart, caring. I miss him so much it aches.
3. Fred Perry gloves - Mike bought me these a few months ago. I wear them everyday and I couldn't find them. Turned out my boss hid them at work! He's nuts, but I am so glad to have them back.
4. Callan - So glad he and I talk. Dude is so funny and is such a great friend. Stoked that his life is working out so well right now.
5. Clean laundry - One of my favorite things ever. I never realize it until I have no clean clothes. Nothing like fresh smelling clean clothes!
1. Cooking - I love cooking some healthy, yummy home-cooked meals.
2. Huge grey scarf - completely forgot I had this. It's practically a blanket and I am so happy to have found it.
3. Warm duvet covers - I really can only use these in the winter.
4. Farley - She is such a solid friend. Really is always there for me and lets me be there for her.
5. Vicky - She has proven to be the one of the most loyal friends I have ever had. I have been so distant these past couple months, but not a day goes by that she doesn't check in on me.
1. Waking up from the insane dreams I have been having and finally realizing they were not real. They have been kicking my ass, but it makes me appreciate real life much more.
2. Watching Mike & the rest of the Nothing record in the sanctuary. It was really pretty in there. I love being in churches. It was great to watch him play drums (he is really talented) and it sounded great in there.
3. Heat - I was freezing at work and actually had the heat on (without Jeff turning it off). I can't even imagine how people without heat or live on the streets must feel during the winter. It has to be the worst feeling in the entire world.
4. Candles - Mike got me these candles from Anthropologie and they look and smell incredible.
5. Gluten free brownies/cookies - yummmmm.
1. Water - I actually drink it now. A touch of lemon in it.
2. Hot tea - Love it. I used to drink it non-stop, it's a nice soothing treat.
3. Internet - Seriously what a crazy invention. I've been pretty sick this week and can look for christmas presents, do work, talk to friends, etc all because of this crazy thing.
4. Heating pad - best thing ever.
5. My dvr - I get to watch things I miss and can tape random parts of shows to show Michael.
1. Television - Being able to watch the mind-numbing tv shows that I love when I am sick, actually distracts me. It's great.
2. Back scratches - Love giving them to Mike. Love getting them from him.
3. New tights - I got a new pair of tights yesterday and they are the best. I kinda want to go buy like 5 more pairs. Fancy.
4. Chill work days - I worked on Sunday for the hell of it and today (although feeling awful), my boss was pretty chill. It's a nice change of pace after ALL of last week.
5. Layers - While the people I work with probably think I looked like a bum today, being able to roll into work wearing torn up jeans, boots, shirt, sweater, coat, glove and a hat and wear it all day, is actually enjoy for me.
*Disclaimer - I am surprised I came up with 5 things. Surprised it didn't just say Michael 5 times.
1. Medicine - This goes for anything that brings me relief from being sick. Advil is a pretty cool one. My mom and I discussed last night how crazy it is any of this stuff was ever invented. Nuts.
2. Christmas shopping - Okay maybe just the idea of it. I don't have much money, but I am making myself crazy with ideas. It'd be much more fun if I had some more money and some more time to buy/make things, but I know how good this makes me and other people feel. Yay! My favorite.
3. Gluten free bread - I've been on a GF diet for about 8 months. I have lived without any bread that long. Then I finally found a loaf a bread I enjoy. Just a simple sandwich or toast with coffee is seriously exciting. I love it. I want to bake my own!
4. Hot showers - Seriously might be the greatest thing on earth in the winter. Really could be in one forever if possible.
5. Dreams - Last night I dreamt about my grandmother and father who have both passed away in the past couple years. I dreamt about my friends Josh and Stoney who passed away, too. Considering I didn't sleep long that's crazy. But I like to think they were visiting to say hi. My dad said he likes Mike and is happy I am happy. My grandmother called him 'youthful', it made me laugh so hard I woke up.
1. Patience - I usually feel like I have none, but I am realizing that maybe I have a lot more than I thought. My friends/family have a lot of patience too, dealing with me and listening to me. I am glad I have so much patience dealing with my boss and life in general. It's getting me through.
2. Being sober - I am slightly amazed that even with days like yesterday I am not out drinking or taking pills or something. Somewhere my head thinks it'd help, but I really know it wouldn't. I am glad I know the things I do.
3. Dan/Matt - It is really good to have such good guys in my life that I can talk to on a daily basis. Seriously amazing men that can make me laugh like crazy, that I know truly care and would do anything for me if I needed their help. They have both been in my life so long and it goes without saying how much I appreciate them. Not to mention I'd be there for them both in a heartbeat.
4. Distance/time - It's nice to get a way from things that have hurt me long enough that I can start to let them go. I am not sure if it's complete forgiveness, but it slowly gets there. Looking back on things and not being filled with total hate is a good feeling. Even remembering good things while looking back is a blessing.
5. My bed - Honestly the best thing I ever purchased. Simply put. It is like heaven.
1. Seeing Mike's face tonight. I have been a nutcase this week and I went to see him and realized I just missed him a whole lot. It was actually one of the nicest feelings I have had in so long. Being cranky/sad and then realizing it's because you miss the man you love. It's great. Seriously great.
2. My job - While I tend to have pretty stressful days there, I am so grateful I have money to pay my bills and survive. Hopefully getting a raise soon. Today was a good day. No real work stress. Boss goes on vacation soon, which means I work alone! I love this!
3. Music - I had to go to the dentist today, which I wasn't happy about. He listens to classic rock in there and it always calms me down. Been listening to some Xmas music while in the car and then switched over to Fleetwood Mac, it just really shifted me into a great mood. Seriously love music.
4. Christmas & the coming weeks - I feel like there is so much coming up in the next few weeks that I am excited about. Both Melissa's will be in town. Josh will be home and done his traveling. Mike is recording. MWY shows coming up. My boss is going on vacation. Christmas!! which means presents and hangouts and parties and love and fun! Not sure what is going on for NYE, but I am excited to actually be with the people I love.
5. Finding things - Last night I found bags of knee socks, thigh highs, tights and leg warmers. It was like I hit the lottery! I couldn't find them and it was making me crazy! I found my other bag of scarves, hats and gloves! And two of my winter coats. Seriously it was so great. I also found 3 trash bags full of clothes to give to Salvation Army and a TV, a cabinet and a cd rack to give away, too. All because I took the time to clean the spare room out. Good times!
So, it's been a while. I don't feel like writing a whole blog, but I made a deal with my friend Lana to do a "30 days of thanks" list. She always comes up with cool challenges for herself and I liked this one.
It was a pretty good couple months, followed by a crappy start to the winter. I have been in a mood and feel like I've had a hard time looking at the bright side of things. So the deal is, I will write 5 things, daily, that I am thankful for or happy about in life right now.
1. My family - My mom and Josh, I have no idea how they do it, but they deal with me on a daily basis, better than anyone. My mom is the greatest and I owe her so much and I don't know what I'd do without Josh.
2. Michael - He is wonderful and sometimes understands me more than I understand myself. He puts a smile on my face and makes me feel much better about life. He has helped restore a lot of my faith in love.
3. My friends - It's been a rough week or two and I finally had the chance to catch up with them. I have been missing Melissa and Melissa so much these days. I miss a bunch of friends right now. I hoping I'll have off some during the holidays, so I can see everyone. Plus both of them will be home for Christmas/New Years. So crazy!
4. My boots - I don't like winter too much, but getting to wear my boots every day makes me so happy. I know that might sound corny, but I do have some great boots!! I love it.
5. Photographs - I have been reminiscing a lot lately. Looking at photos of my dad, friends that don't live here, current photos, etc. I absolutely love photography, I love capturing a memory or a moment that I will be able to remember later (chances are with my brain, the photo will come in handy). I miss doing photography and decided to start taking more photos, like I used to.
